For The Last Time
I wasn’t going to write about this, but the rain tonight put me in the writing mood.
***Before you read any further, play the video I posted and listen to the song in the background while you read ahead***
Now I don’t watch television often, but there are a few shows on my top 3 list and “Californication” is one of them. The show’s main character, Hank, is a no luck having writer who is addicted to sex. Yet, he is in love with one woman, Karen, his lover and mother of their child, Rebecca. Throughout the last four seasons, Hank and Karen go through their ups and downs with each other, but no matter what happens, their lives are forever intertwined by their daughter.
Last night, since I wasn’t able to fall asleep, I decided to watch the latest episode of Californication.
Hank and Karen are shown slow dancing in Karen’s living room to Jeff Beck’s “Cause We’ve Ended As Lovers.” Karen in mid dance vents to Hank about all that is wrong with him and her and asks Hank a question that even I have wondered to myself many times. The question and answer in the show had me thinking about it so much that here I am writing about it. The question is highlighted in bold:
Hank: Karen, okay, what do you want from me?
Karen: Something you can’t give me, something you’ve never been able to give me. Something to look forward to.
Hank: I’m sorry.
Karen: Don’t be, it’s not your fault. It’s mine, it’s always been mine.
Hank: That’s not true. Don’t say that.
Karen: If you were going to have sex with someone, and you knew it would be the absolute last time, what do you think it would be like?
Hank: I think it would be incredibly sad.
Karen: Yeah, so do I… make me sad.
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This scene helped describe an emotion I once felt. The last time this happened to me, I had no idea it would be the last. I still can’t decide if that is a good thing or a bad thing. Even though it’s been a while, I sometimes still wish we could be together for that one last time. Although, it is incredibly painful to be intimate with a loved one and know that it is for the absolute last time.
